Only God knows who I really am!

When we want to know who we truly are and what we are really worth, we shouldn't be looking to those around us, we should be asking God. When you see yourself through His eyes you find hope and an overwhelming sense of pure love

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Have you ever felt not good enough, not worthy to be loved by anyone, let alone God!? Have you ever felt like all you do is mess up, make mistakes, unworthy of forgiveness? When I was young I was bullied, and it became a defining moment in my life. For a whole year in school I didn't tell anyone about how I was feeling and it was painful and when I eventually told my parents I cried so hard I couldn't speak and could barely breathe, in fact, I wasn't sure it would ever stop. Ever since then, I think I have always cared too much about what other people think of me, which has had a huge and negative impact on my own self-worth. I have often had little confidence or self-esteem and I have struggled to believe that anyone could really love me, because I'm just not worth that love. However, here is the thing, no matter where I go and who I meet in life, no-one is ever going to know me the way God does, not even me! He is my creator, He knows every part of me, the good and the bad. He knows how I will deal with what life throws at me, He knows how I feel, He knows my inner most thoughts, and incredibly, He loves me completely and unconditionally at all times and in all circumstances! I might not be able to understand it, but it doesn't stop it being true; 1 John 4:16 ‘And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them’.

When we want to know who we truly are and what we are really worth, we shouldn't be looking to those around us, we should be asking God. When you see yourself through His eyes you find hope and an overwhelming sense of pure love. At the end of the day we are human, and we will mess up, but luckily for us, the Lord will always love us and forgive us for our sins if we ask. I look at the bible and it is full of people who can't help but mess up. When I read it I can't help but think 'no, why would you do that?' although I know my life is littered with those moments too. It fills me with hope that even someone like King David wasn't perfect however the Lord said in Acts 13:22 'I have found David son of Jesse, a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do’. David took another man’s wife and had that man killed! But he repented and the Lord still loved him. In Exodus 3:11 Moses found himself unworthy; ‘But Moses said to God, 'Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?’ Moses didn't believe he could be used by the Lord and yet God used Moses to rescue the Israelites from their misery and slavery. Even Solomon in all his wisdom, eventually followed other Gods - not so wise you may think, but he allowed himself to be led by the love for his numerous wives rather than his God.

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The Lord knows us better than we know ourselves, which we see in the new testament when He predicts that Peter will deny Him three times; Matthew 26:31-34 ‘Then Jesus told them, ‘This very night you will all fall away on account of me, for it is written: ‘I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered.’ But after I have risen, I will go ahead of you into Galilee’. Peter replied, ‘Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will’. ‘Truly I tell you’, Jesus answered, ‘this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times’. Peter, who loved the Lord deeply, couldn't imagine ever doing such a thing. I am sure the Lord knew exactly how much Peter loved Him and how He believed he could never do such a thing, but the Lord also knew the situation that Peter would be in when faced with that particular challenge, surrounded by people and being accused....

We aren't perfect, that honour belongs to the Lord alone, but if we are feeling lonely and struggling with who we are and what we are worth, don't look to the world for answers, because you will only find darkness and pain and misery. It is a real challenge because naturally we look to others, especially those close to us for their opinions, validation, love. However, those in the world are human too and will let us down, get it wrong and upset us. I still struggle with it all, but I’m trying to learn that I must spend time seeking out what God thinks of me and to base my identity in that alone. Look to the creator, the one who knitted you together in your mother’s womb and created you just as you are for a reason; Psalm 139:13 ‘For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb’. Don't be defined by your past anymore. You are, who He says you are and He is who He says He is, in that you can trust!

Author:Rebekah Cronk

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